All in a day...
Visited my grandmother today at a place where an old woman do not want to spend. I felt sadness and pity upon the sight of my grandmother.. She is lonely, scared and most of all sad.. She is alone in the cubicle for 4.. No one to keep her company and this place isn't a place where anyone would like to spend or visit.. This type of place only brings misery.. ok it only brings only one form of happiness, the birth of a baby... tats all... other than tat its only misery... As for my grandmother, she isn't feeling that well and she needed a lot of attention.. She is old and her physical condition disallow her to anything.. This is due to a bad habit that most people indulge in.. "Smoking" sad to say i myself is a smoker.. I wouldn't like or feel proud to admit that i am a smoker in a public blog..but its the truth.. As for my grandmother who was a smoker a long time ago is suffering from the after effects of ciggarette smoke.. her lungs are not functioning properly and it leads to other health problems...a weak heart and a bad case of phlegm.. she is sick and needs a heavy dose of medication, not to mention her high blood preasure medication.. all in all she have to depend on someone to help her move around...
I remember that my grandmother used to cook delicious meals for the family and help the family out with the household chores..she even put in the effort to prepare traditional dishes which requires a lot of effort..she put in love and effort to make those dish to gather the whole family once in a while..to keep the family together...but ever since her illness got serious, she isn't able to do wat a mother does best..even though she wanted to... :( she is a real loving grandmother who sometimes nag at us teenagers for being naughty... and there was once i got into trouble with some boys in the football field and she came n try to help me out.. but i manage to settle the misunderstandings with the boys before my grandmother got there.. luckily else i would be in trouble :P my grandmother would nag at us a lot but she is doing it out of love..like every mother would do for her kids... but the age factor has reli made my grandmother incapable of all those... i will alwiz remember all those memories that i had shared with my grandmother..
as time glides by, things changes, people move on...some people come, stay and leave... leaving pleasant as well as unpleasant memories.. juz a part of a life cycle.... as for the unfortunate things tat happen to my grandmother, i can only see her go through it..as i am incapable of doing more than that...even though i wish i could...
life goes on even when bad things happen..so i haf to continue on with my life doing things as it is...but i would try my best to change somethings in my life... "smoking".. somthing that i will try to give up as it do more harm to me than anything else...
grandma, i do not know how much pain u r going through right now... but i do know that i love you and u haf grace my life as long as u haf lived and i have recieved ur blessings in many ways.. if i haf ever let you down, all i can say is i am sorry as there is no other way for me to express my regrets..and i will work hard to improvise myself and to do u proud.. lessons taught by you will be treasured and kept in mind for as long as i live..
take care grandma and i will try to be there for u..
god bless u...
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